The King and I...

so let's seeeee, where were we? oh right, i was miserable with Legos, because it wasn't rockin' in the sack and he couldn't keep up with me socially. meanwhile i met a dude that was like... there really is no better way to describe it than the guy version of me. Hell, he's a site admin for a bunch of porno sites; how hot is that?

anyway, so this guy and i started chatting each other up privately, as opposed to in the IRC channel. it was actually quite tame at first-- discussing my cooking adventures, talking of music, aspirations/dreams, and somehow it got around to how we were both quite unhappy in our current relationships. fast forward a couple of weeks, the dialogue has definitely stepped up to a different level and we are trying to figure out what the hell to do.

my situation with Legos was much more easily remedied than his almost 10 year relationship. Also, because he had been with her for so long, and i had a bit of a suspect past with this group of people (can you believe they thought i was a trouble maker?), we knew all hell would break loose from a coupling between us. because he is the king of the geeks (or as described by one person "silver back of the nerds"), he is the mediator and sometimes oracle for this group that has shoddy interpersonal skills and trouble expressing themselves.

Despite comparatively being able to disengage myself from Legos, in late may when i was still attempting to make stuff with him work, we had purchased a trip to fla together. hotel, rental car, plane fare all wrapped into one. almost as soon as i bought it with him, i regretted it and tried to back out. that of course went over as a raging "fail".

So, to wrap this up for now and to recap the situation, the King and I are solidly retarded over each other, he's living with this chick he's miserable with, I'm dating someone that both bores and frustrates me, yet i still have vacation plans with. we had both tried to put the brakes on what was developing, both took pause because we knew if and when it hit the public eye, we would get a ration of wrath from the majority of people. However, neither of us wanted to ignore what was going on because it seemed to be the most amazing thing either of us had ever encountered. What to do?